Off Duty

I headed out of town just as the sun was setting over Saigon on Sunday night. Just me. I spent the flight trying to think about putting into words why this trip was so anticipated and so needed. I kept telling people, "I'm headed to Bangkok for a much needed break". But it isn't really that. It's not a break. I get breaks. I am fortunate that I have a husband and nanny who watch the kids when I head out. I am lucky that every Thursday night, I hit the town with an amazing group of women for a "break". I haven't been a mom for very long, but this is what I have learned so far. Moms have two settings - On and Idle. That's it. No Off switch that I know of. I am always on duty. Always on call, even if I am not with the girls. Awake or asleep, I always have one ear open. For the most part, I never let my "Mom" guard down. All that said, I am not complaining in the least. I don't view motherhood as my job. It is my way of life. Being a mom is who I am now. My girls add the color to my day and multiply the fun in life by a million. But for this coming week, I am letting my guard down. And so far, it feels great.